Boomer.

I'm suspended mid-air and I have no clue as to what I should be doing. I try to distance myself from this stupid incessant crush but somehow it just won't leave me be.

I am stuck.

It's like the stars aligned and misaligned and re-aligned only to fuck me over. I am in so many levels of deep shit. I can say it's funny and be light and just laugh about it, but really, I can't cause it's not.

.......

Wanna make it worse? I got no one to talk to. I want to talk, and just talk about this for a million times until it loses its meaning. Like how you play a song over and over and eventually get sick of it. I want that. I want to spoil it rotten and eventually throw it away. But seriously, who would want to hear me rant over and over about the same gorram thing?!

And this is why I started creating my imaginary audience, so I can vent to an impartial party.

I just seriously need to clear my head. I want to clear my head and move on to more important things. But...

No one is inspiring enough to help me work on more substantial matters (aside from - and I can't believe I am actually saying this - matters of the heart. There, I said it. Eww). I want to go back to being productive - back to having plans - and back to when I could still say I got pride for the work I do. Yeah, good luck with that!

** Because I am just ranting and I don't even know what my point is anymore (happens to me alot - that's how incoherent I am nowadays), let's end this now.

Good night, mofos.